My head feels busy at the moment, like there's too much going on. Well...there is too much going on...and I just need to stop...and breathe. So today, I delved through the blog archives and found a post I wrote about a year ago, which feels very applicable today.
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Over the weekend, I was talking to Lopez about year abroad/her being at law school and how quickly the last 12 months have passed. Yeah, there have been some times when the days seemed to drag, but on the whole this year has flown by! And then Lopez said something that really made me stop and think:
"Sometimes I need to take a moment to stop and realise how far I've come."
And this is true for all of us.
Sometimes, we're so busy that we don't take the time to just stop and reflect.
But we need to find the time to do that. I need to take the time to do that.
Six months ago I was in a crappy place: I wasn't taking my insulin, I was rarely checking my blood sugar. I just didn't want to be doing it anymore. I gave being a non-diabetic a go. It's safe to say things didn't really work out in my favour. I felt awful for it, and I put a lot of effort into getting back on track. It wasn't easy (but then what is when it comes to diabetes?!) but I sorted things out.
It's not until I take that moment to pause and think about things that I realise just how different things are: I'm back on injections and I sugar test more than enough times a day. My levels aren't perfect (and they never will be) but I know that I'm trying my best. I eat healthily and carb count as best I can. I started writing, and what started out as a place for me to vent and clear my head has accumulated actual readers, something that still surprises me, as that wasn't what I set out to do. However, I am glad of what has come of it.
So take a moment to stop. You may be surprised when you think about just how far you've come. I know I am.